The title is a little Payday joke that sorta matches the tone of my feeling. I've been thinking a lot and said to myself "When did I get so boring?" I've been watching vlog videos and they just get a lot out of life. They meet random people and they just do things. I look … Continue reading MNA: You Are No Longer For This World!
I didn't feel so bad today despite work kicking the snot out of me. I'll be down to 1 day a week at second job which I'm hoping helps my mental health. I really shouldn't complain. The job really isn't that bad. The people I cater all suck, but at least I never see them … Continue reading MNA: The Question Is “What?”
I've been feeling more and more like a failure with each passing day. I look at all the bills I gotta pay and then look at my income and see it is hardly enough. The older people would go tell me to change that. As I see it, I have 2 real ways to change … Continue reading MNA: The Price Of Blood
I know when I walk into work on Monday I'm going to hear the same old song and dance like "Oh Chas, did you research a business plan? Did you do anything we talked about at all?" The answer is going to be a big "No." Then I'll hear something along the lines of "You're … Continue reading MNA: Is It Not Winning Or Is It Losing?
I've been meaning to get a personal post out but the last thing I feel like doing after work is feel obligated to write something. So what do I do? I write here before bed while this cat meows at my door. Little brat. I've been thinking a lot about me as a person. My … Continue reading MNA: Learning The Art Of Contradiction
I'm gonna be more candid here than I usually am. I had an ex who once told me I had a big ego. In retrospect, it was probably one of her friends that wrote that but to this day I've been weighing that statement. Yeah, of course I have a big ego. With such an … Continue reading MNA: Ego
I'm trying to decide if there's a problem with me and people or not. I feel like I bring my own sadness to myself. It's like I could win the lottery and someone baked me a cake all in the same day and I'd still find a reason to be sad about it. I'd say … Continue reading MNA: Throw Enough Tantrums And You’ll Find Yourself Without Any Friends